You think you understand my autism but you really don’t

You asked me out for lunch tomorrow

Just a few of us, you said

But you see 5 is a few to you, 3 is a crowd to me.

If you really want to have lunch with me, why not just the two of us?

How can it be a few when everyone is out for lunch at the same time?

You see, it’s not a few at all when you consider the rest of the population and the queue in line.

These are the things you ignore.

These are the things I can’t ignore.

You said we’d go somewhere quiet.

But how are we getting there? I asked.

First you got to get on the bus!

During bloody lunch time!

So why do I want to put myself through all that trouble when I can enjoy my lunch in peace and quiet where I am?

People think they understand but they really don’t.

You go from A to Z the same as going from A to B.

As easy as ABC

But for me, the journey is full of hurdles you don’t see

For you, the journey begins tomorrow at noon

For me, the journey begins now

Cos when you say A to Z

I see

B  C  D  E  F  G  H  I  J  K  L  M  N  O  P  Q  R  S  T  U  V  W  X  Y


  1. Reblogged this on In My Asperger's World and commented:
    A beautiful and spot on account of perspective – what is a simple, daily act for some people is a massive hurdle for people with Autism and Asperger’s. If just one other person understands and acknowledges this feeling – the post is worth it.

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      1. Thanks for asking. Socialising is not a big priority in my life and I thought that was what the lunch was all about and it was too much of a hassle. Usually, I bring my own lunch and spend my time reading other people’s blog. Simple, no fuss. With a group, you have to wait for everyone to be ready or to catch up, deciding where to go, and then waiting 5-10 minutes for a table. And most of the time throughout lunch, they were just bantering and teasing another colleague. One of them thought it was so rare for me to be out with them, he wanted to take a group photo but I declined, not in a rude way, it was a light-hearted atmosphere throughout. Luckily, we had one of the larger tables so we had more space between us, that helped a bit because I hate confined spaces. It wasn’t that difficult but it’s still a hassle. They are good people but I much prefer my own company 🙂

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      2. It’s nice that your colleague wanted to take a group photo because you were there. It’s also nice that he didn’t pressure you too much (I hope). You shouldn’t feel obligated to be in a photo if you don’t fee like it. I love to look at group photos, but don’t always want to be photographed myself, especially if it’s unexpected (spontaneous). Anyway, it sounds like your colleagues appreciated having you there, and now that you’ve done it, you can get out of the next one more easily. 😉

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  2. Oh, my, this is great. Yes, exactly. I find group lunches and after work cocktail hours expensive, inconvenient, stressful, and socially awkward. I much prefer to eat by myself or on occasion with just one person I like and know well.

    Also, people have always accused me of overthinking and making things too complicated, but for me it’s that they’re underthinking and over simplifying.

    Very nicely expressed!

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    1. Oh yes, you are right to point out that it is expensive! Why should I pay for an expensive meal I’m not going to enjoy? It’s like paying more to suffer, which doesn’t make sense at all!
      Sometimes I’m not even sure if they think at all, if they do, it’s very haphazard, with the alphabets all jumbled up.😜

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