All hell breaks loose

I don’t go out during weekends, I declined all social invitations, I don’t meet my friends. Some may think I’m taking solitude to an extreme. Maybe I am, but I enjoy my solitude and I do it for self-preservation. I missed my long hikes but I’m not looking forward to mingle with the crowd on the streets, which would be my everyday reality if I chose to step out of the house. (For those who haven’t watched it, the first two videos are reposts.)

I had a bad case of sensory overload today as I walked past an examination hall. Gosh, these students are louder than the passing traffic. Sights like these are not uncommon in the university, examinations are just one example, conferences, ceremonies and other functions always draw a crowd. I had an adrenaline rush just walking through the crowd, if I were one of the students sitting this exam, I would be on the verge of a nervous meltdown. (New video below: Beware loud noise*)

These are my everyday realities, almost. If I have a ‘normal’ job and ‘normal’ life like everyone else, these would be my everyday realities and I cannot envisage a day when I have to get a ‘normal’ job like everyone else (nowadays, I work from home twice a week). I also know I can’t live like this forever. This is a hostile environment for hermits and introverts. Yes, I can escape into nature and I’m not saying I don’t derive any pleasure from it but the respite is short and temporary, in comparison to the amount of time I spent amongst people, overdose of people.

If you can understand my despair

I’m not living 

Merely keeping myself alive

A thin streak of hope

Eventually, my luck will run out

All hell breaks loose

But for now, it’s time to wind down. Thanks for reading/watching.

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