Sorry, my family and friend.
I went back to Singapore for a few days last week as my mum had a cataract surgery. I’m glad to say the operation went well and she is recovering. Going back home is always a mixed feeling because I have no affection for the place I was born in, other than my immediate family. I know a friend living in Australia who happens to be born in the same country as I was. She said she felt close to me because we came from the same hometown and that means we shared the same memories of home and food. I hate to break it to her that I don’t share her sentiments. I regard her as a good friend simply because she is a good friend and not because of our common heritage.
My parents currently live in a private high-rise residential in Singapore, which has been our home for more than 20 years. There are many stray cats hanging around the various blocks of apartments and over the years, we’ve seen many cats come and go. Many of the cats (and dog) you see below are no longer here. It makes me feel sad when I think of them and I’m sorry that I wasn’t able to help them much. Lately I’m starting to feel a little more depressed than usual and I was full of mixed emotions on the flight back to Singapore last week, I had this thought on my mind:
One day, when I have enough of this world, I am going to leave. When that day comes, I may not be able to say goodbye in time and I hope you can forgive me.
I had a rather productive weekend. I’ve just written and sent to the newspaper my open letter response to the university’s misleading article on autism. You can read about the university’s article here (Part I), my initial response here (Part II) and the author’s response here (Part III). I sent the open letter to the same newspaper in which the article was published. I would know in a week’s time whether or not it is accepted for publication. If not, I intend to send it to other newspapers. I will translate the contents of my open letter and publish it on my blog later on. I also intend to write another open letter in English and submit it to the English newspaper.
It’s been 2 years since I started this blog and I realise I’m not making any progress in terms of pursuing my dream of moving to Australia or somewhere else that is less populated and spacious. There are a few mental health related conferences taking place in Australia this year which I wish to attend with presentation submission deadlines coming up in 1-2 months’ time. I hope I can submit mine in time. I don’t have too much expectations given I haven’t got much time to prepare but I would still like to give it a go. It is difficult because I am using my own personal time to do my own research as this is entirely outside my scope of work. It is a challenge to find time to work on my own project after work especially when I can become overwhelmed with fatigue and sensory overload. It also involves a lot of planning and organisation which my executive functions struggle with, not to mention that I have another research to work on at work. What this means is that, I might be spending less time reading the posts of the people I follow on WordPress. I’m sorry this has to happen, especially to those I’ve just recently followed. I didn’t sign up to follow your blog in the hope that you would also follow mine. When I click ‘follow’, I am genuinely interested in reading about your stories, hobbies and adventures. I’ve tried reading every post of the people I follow on a daily basis but that leaves me little time for my own research. There are many posts with informative and interesting ideas I’d love to read but sometimes it gets to the point of information overload, I start to get distracted and lose focus. I hope you will forgive my poor multi-tasking and slow processing skills. I’m sorry if I have not been reading or liking your posts.