The first time I read this post by Laina on the diagnostic criteria for Allistic Spectrum Disorder, I laughed because it was brilliantly funny. I still think it’s funny except when you are now being surrounded daily by people on the Allistic Spectrum, in a constrained noisy environment where bullshit is the special interest of the majority, individuals bordering on Obsessive Compulsive Social Disorder, and suffering from Social Addictive Syndrome, small talk addiction, intense emotions aroused by the fear of solitude and isolation, noise seeking individuals for whom silence is too much to handle. It becomes a nightmare. I’m not going to apologise for the title of this post, I need to vent and/or break.
I’m tired of always being the one who accommodates your needs for empty shallow small talk; I’m tired of always being the one who has to adjust to your loud obnoxious laughter; I’m tired of always being taken for granted; I’m tired of having my needs ignored.
Autistics are said to be frank to the point of being blunt. I’m not. Sometimes, I lie. I try to be polite and considerate. So if you see me smiling, what I’m actually saying is:
SHUT THE FUCK UP!
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